Stanislaw Barszczak, Conscientious and appalling protocol about calling to divine faith…
‘I have a dream, a song to sing, To help me cope with anything. If you see the wonder of a fairy tale, You can take the future even if you fail. I believe in angels, Something good in everything I see, I believe in angels, When I know the time is right for me. I’ll cross the stream – I have a dream. I have a dream, a fantasy, To help me through reality. And my destination makes it worth the while pushing through the darkness still another mile. I believe in angels, Something good in everything I see, I believe in angels. When I know the time is right for me I’ll cross the stream – I have a dream, I’ll cross the stream – I have a dream.’(Abba) For a great many people, the evening is the most enjoyable part of the day. For me too. Perhaps, then, there is something to his advice that I should cease looking back so much, that I should adopt a more positive outlook and try to make the best of what remains of my day. Today I was in the gallery, modern supermarket. What is this gallery? Why should we have a gallery of things done by us? Because we have not learned anything. She said we weren’t being taught enough to cheat life… There was another life that I might have had, but I am having this one. She said to me, all children have to be deceived if they are to grow up without trauma. As growing out of infant years in Poland, the People’s Republic of Poland, I was cheated for life, although I was not always aware of it. But it’s mainly my mother’s thanks that I grew up without being traumatized. However, my trauma remains clinging to spiritual values, Christian values in Poland. The dreams of freedom on Polish soil have always existed. The ship is already breastfeeding the depths, and he sailed the wind; I do not care what shore I will sail to. If only I would not swim back. When the bright ones with crystals bored me, a huge, deep blue plane, I will welcome forests, deserts, rocks. Be healthy, my love homeland forever! As a writer, I’m more interested in what people tell themselves happened rather than what actually happened. Still memory is quite central for me… As a writer, I’m more interested in what people tell themselves happened rather than what actually happened. Memory is quite central for me…I want to write a biography of one life, you see. If we don’t take our chance now, another may never come for either of us. I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it’s just too much. The current’s too strong. They’ve got to let go, drift apart. That’s how it is with us. It’s a shame, Kath, because we’ve loved each other all our lives. But in the end, we can’t stay together forever. It was like when you make a move in chess and just as you take your finger off the piece, you see the mistake you’ve made, and there’s this panic because you don’t know yet the scale of disaster you’ve left yourself open to. What I’m not sure about, is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. We all complete. Maybe none of us really understand what we’ve lived through, or feel we’ve had enough time. Poor creatures. What did we do to you? With all our schemes and plans, I said. Many of our deepest motives come, not from an adult logic of how things work in the world, but out of something that is frozen from childhood. I’m not at all interested in the brave who fight against the odds and win. I am interested in those who accept their lot, as that is what many people in the world are doing. They do their best in ghastly conditions, I ponder. I wouldn’t want to try to adapt something of my own. It would be like going back to school and doing all my exams again. But it has happened. I did not want to go back to school to best convey my inner message to you. But it happened: I was fortunate that I was given some time to choose a wonderful school of life so that I could save the humanistic relics of the past for posterity. The other thing is if I’m saving things just cloned. When you become a parent, or a teacher, you turn into a manager of this whole system. You become the person controlling the bubble of innocence around a child, regulating it.We are here and now you and me. Polish nation- like lava, on the top of cold and hard, dry and filthy. But an interior fire for a hundred years will not get cold; let’s spit on this shell and let’s go down deep.
I come back to it with a souvenir of the forms and events. I’m back to the loneliness, the books and the dreams. From a foreign mother; his blood, old heroes, his name will be forty and four. As a traveler, abandoned among the wild islands, whose the eye and foot is carrying in different directions, he is watching, do not see where the twin is. And every night to his cave he returns in despair. Crazy, let will love its lonely wall. And it does not tear the chain so as not to renew the wounds… Woman! Poor being! You shaky creature! The angels envy you, you have a worse soul, worse than it is! …A Pole, though famous among the nations, that more than life loves a family country, ready to hurry him, let him go into the land of the world, to endure misery and miserable for many years, fighting people and fate while he was in the midst of a storm. His hope is that he serves the homeland. So, I have them, I have – those two wings. It’s enough: from west to east I will expand it. Left to the past, right for the future I will hit. And I will reach in the rays of feeling – to You! You do not know the living truths, you will not see the miracle! So, Have a heart and look at the heart… I perceive every day how young people suffer from the fact that there are no schools teaching people to live with people and the world … For this reason I everywhere left a part of my soul behind. A man, he felt the unspeakable stimulus to drown in the mud.And I am a man, and am afraid of my own whims. I am healthy on my face, but I have deep wounds in my heart. Because I can not be a lover, I will be a hero. God! People’s mouths for the lonely people screaming, the people themselves will eventually get bored. And the faces of the people playing at the end of the people will get bored. The Hands for the people and for the land fighting the people themselves will cut them. Names of people who are pleasing to them the folk will forget. Everything will pass. After the roar, after the noise, after the tiring. The Dark, small people, they will take inheritance. Should I help God alone? I am suffering, I am crazy. Though you are wise and happy. You’re always in control, You always rule and you think. And they say that you are not going astray! Liar, who called you love, You are only wisdom. I have to help God. God! I will shoot on the whole range of the creation: This voice, which generations will go into generations: I shout that you are not the father of the world, but … you only are God the deceiver. You cheat. And I am a sinner. Help me. You are sinner, You have never read those words yourself, May God not ask about their meaning. Pray; think of you in dirty clothed words. How sinful of his thrust is queen, when in begging garments, covered in ash, she will stop the time of repentance before the church. But Return to the throne, the royal garb gets in and will be greater light than the first, she will shine with a new glow again… Who, like an animal of the desert, looks for, like an eagle owl after a summer’s night is flying alone. And like the ghost to the coffin knocks, such a lost for the world! Who in his youth a song of mourning has sung. He once drank, humming eternally; who as a young man visits the graves, he will not come back to the living, from the people’s world… I have to be free – yes! I do not know where the news came from. But I know what to be free of East grace. Villains, they will only take away shackles from my hands and legs, But they will put them on the soul and I will be exiled! So, the people, you leave the beautiful happy valleys. Turn to God back. God alone can destroy the world and put out the world. But without our help, he can not save us. People! Each of you, lonely or imprisoned you could lift the thrones with thought and faith always, I ponder. And I looked through the world of fissures. I saw there- what I saw, I will tell – after death. Because there is no voice in living languages. Will the bad thought win or good beat, tomorrow in speech and in works, you will show that. But even one moment of this battle for a lifetime about the fate of man prophecies too. You look up to heaven, and you will not look at yourself; He will not find God who searches only in heaven. They are throwing us out of the museums, they are going away from the pedestals of history. The flame will figure out the painted story, the treasures will be destroyed by sword thieves. But there will be eternity through the song only. So you have to live at least half a word, one must live a living half of the eternal Word. I pray for eternal spring for you. First beautiful spring! Who saw you then in our country, the memorable spring of war, spring of harvest! For beautiful spring! Who saw you, how thriving you were cereals and grasses, and people shiny, abundant in events, hope pregnant! I see you so far, beautiful a ghost apparition on a sleep! Born in captivity, shod in a cradle, I only had one such spring in my life. And
I would like to write and tell you about this innerspring always… One speaks of Pope emeritus Benedict XVI as a conscientious theologian, and of a new pope Francis of Argentina that he is a heretic, speaks weakly, walks in any shoes, he brothers with different confessions that are beyond the mystical body of Christ, who do not recognize Peter. I am catholic. I will not leave the Roman Catholic Church. But you have to somehow see that there is a general mess here. Love and do what you like, I’m not satisfied. You need fidelity based on a deep reading of the Bible. A few days ago I visited Fatima in far-away Portugal. The Fatima revelations show the power of the Creator first at all… Evil and darkness happen when a man does not have God’s love … evil does not exist, evil is a lack of good. Darkness does not exist, it is the lack of light. Religion is knowledge, the science of bringing religion back to school, the scientists would express themselves about it. But all work is very important. Physical work, but also the work of the human brain, all work must be put into action, the politics said. What is really in you, I want to know all shines and shadows and all the innermost ones secret thoughts, who really you will dream today. I will remove the skin by costing the bone marrow. You do the same when you come to guests; this mask ball is charming for a short moment, under the hood, each of us is different – I do not think I’m wrong. I do not want to draw you into the animal, I’m busy with classes from dawn to dawn, but that’s what Friends are for, to share the hardships of everyday life, holidays and Sundays. So sometimes I’m still staring at the Acropolis in Athen- as if you could still count on us, also poor writers. I admire the ancient tower of Babel again. The people have long been a unity that we can not overtake … and for nothing, because time is not standing still. I invite you for a walk. Beloved Readers. I invite you for a walk, where the greenery will bend to us and the flowers will hang out hug the dew into the palm of your hand, the colors will light the rainbow into the spider’s diamond thread and the time has secret caches, happiness in them buried us, in shady alleys, peace leads the silence to the arm and only this rustling of leaves whispers to you with such grace that dripping down the drops of the sun, drenched in a dream and singing, which comes from the thickets, tunes the thoughts pleasantly …in streams of clear water bridges hang railings in a silver-shimmering, gleaming smiles gathering joyfully… For us vineyard deep blue hillside and vineyard grace, and vineyard juice. I will say this in this place: I have spoken for centuries. And the world still makes the same mistakes. How to treat the modern world? Well, I’m going to travel to the Holy Land for the fifth time… When wolves appear on the horizon – you have to fire them, look at the beginning of a good movie about Polish playwright Sławomir Mrożek. With Mrożek, personally, if I’m still running away on a tree, then again I am a shipwrecked man at sea … But too broken, to enjoy freedom. Another time I will dance tango in a duo with Eugeniusz from the art of Mrożek. And I am the last one who will save the world, I tell myself. So, I will play sometimes not so much with myself, but with a chess buddy – though not seriously. Because it’s not about tormenting each other. It is a fact, the world has gone a bit ahead …Thus, the characters surprise in Mrożek’s plays with an unexpected move. And they kneel, and that’s more. As a paranoia, I could announce universal depression. But I proclaim the final joy of the creator …
In addition, I look at Mary, the Mother of Jesus, who is greater than the world, I think. Beloved Mother of Jesus, she beautifully shows russian icons in art. What inner chasm Mary experienced before she gave birth to Jesus. The art of the world wants to embrace the many faces of Mary’s truth, giving up even true love in favor of a stained glass, i.e. painted it. I had the opportunity to admire that in these days in Lisbon. And sometimes I came back to a strange youth, although I prefer present time and thoughts about tomorrow … I am called by my dear, tangled paths. Solitary loneliness secret powers say that I will not build what is not built. In a thousand years, all domes will be evened out and no one will know our names anymore. Probably so. But I still read some good authors. As you know I love the book because it introduces me into my own world, that it reveals in me riches that I did not foreknow. I always wanted that: no day would go unnoticed, and I would love you telling last truth. We will leave as we truly lived: separately. Always between a terribly big world and a terribly great sky, lonely. Let us be forgiven, Pope Francis teaches us. Happiness is then full when the morning light wakes up two people to a day full of common deeds and conversations… How to read the Bible together? Do not dwell on the achievements of the historical German method of the nineteenth century, reaching the human authorship of biblical texts, but make a new synthesis of the reading of the Bible, including in the humanistic image of the ‘divine dimension’ of the Bible message. So, the Book of Isaiah written for the old age, however, it can be read fully by combining its human character with divine inspiration. This method of research is provided by Pope emeritus Benedict XVI in his books on Jesus. The holy Bible. I wish you all a great reading a new. ‘Can you hear the drums Fernando? I remember long ago another starry night like this. In the firelight Fernando, You were humming to yourself and softly strumming your guitar I could hear the distant drums. And sounds of bugle calls were coming from afar. They were closer now Fernando Every hour every minute seemed to last eternally I was so afraid Fernando. We were young and full of life and none of us prepared to die. And I’m not ashamed to say. The roar of guns and cannons almost made me cry /…./ No more champagne, And the fireworks are through. Here we are, me and you. Feeling lost and feeling blue, It’s the end of the party. And the morning seems so grey. So unlike yesterday, Now’s the time for us to say…Happy new year. Happy new year. May we all have a vision now and then Of a world where every neighbour is a friend, Happy new year, Happy new year. May we all have our hopes, our will to try. If we don’t we might as well lay down and die You and I…May we all have a vision now and then Of a world where every neighbour is a friend. Happy new year, Happy new year, May we all have our hopes, our will to try. If we don’t we might as well lay down and die You and I.’(Abba) The evening repeats itself, another evening falls. As if Christmas time was coming again. There are in manger Shepherds and wise men. Shepherds who know that know nothing and wise men who know that do not know everything. Our hope from manger, there are the beasts here. The world needs a God. And God became man, that man would become God. So, God must come down to the man. A virgin gave birth to a man. The word became flesh. The men, animals, plants, chemicals on the ground. People can not live without animals, animals without people, plants give us oxygen, chemicals make life easier, etc. Here life is constantly exchanged. So, we also can shine like angels. Love is reciprocated in this way.